Monday, August 13, 2007

Up again

What's a story without a little drama? We get to ask ourselves, will she make it? At this point the answer is still out there.

My debt has increased in the last month or so. I was on the road from June 10 until about July 20, which created quite a strain on my financial resources. Then I moved into my new place, assumed a huge debt, and went out to buy new stuff.

Oddly, I don't feel awful about it. I don't expect to be buying stuff for the house constantly. I still am going out there to fill in some gaps (yesterday a new hose and hand-held vacuum) but the spending has slowed and I expect it to get down to a trickle. More importantly, I am okay.

I was determined, when I moved to my new house, to make a fresh start. This meant not taking old furniture with me, not even taking old plates and glasses. I did bring a lot of stuff with me (there is still a storage building waiting to be emptied) but most of the furniture is new.

My vision was that I would accumulate enough savings to be able to furnish the house without taking on further debt. That didn't happen. But neither have I been recklessly extravagant. At this point I have enough to live. I am no longer feeling pressure to run out for sheets or towels or cleaning supplies. So I can take breaths and look for what I want in a more leisurely fashion and even buy some things from thrift shops. I'm looking for mirrors.